Love me for who I am

Updated Lost2Found Website! v2.0

2008-01-20T23:25:54Z

http://www.lost2found.org

OK!

So here's what new in v2.0:

-Integrated blog w/ theme
-Integrated upload w/ theme
-New comment form (send comments right from the page)
-Affies links (links to other sites affiliated w/ pro-homosexuality)

and of course...

....a working gallery. Click and view. Its the most logical type until I figure something out haha.

Still in progress:
- Banner
- Official Logo
- Final color scheme

Let me know what you think!

~Spencer~

Happy New Years!!

2008-01-01T22:03:58Z

Happy new years everyone.

2008 should be a great year. Well hopefully. Today didn't start off great for me and tomorrow won't but the best either, but w/e.

Every other day should be good!

wish all the best.

-Spencer

sorry i haven't been on so long

2007-09-07T05:56:33Z

lots of things to do this year unfortunately

its senior year. so this should be quite interesting

but above all. lots of drama.

as usual.

i can't wait to get out of this place.

i love some of my friends

i'm beginning to wonder about others

but its clear

i have very few best friends. very few who know me well. very few who know that i'm not always predictable, i'm not always sane, and i'm not always around.

That so called "Big Picture"

2007-07-29T17:23:49Z

I have been told every moment of everyday to watch for the big picture. To live my life with the "big" picture in mind, yet it is so contradictory to how i want to live my life.

Why should I think about big picture when all i want to do is live my life with the little moments. Live my life knowing every moment of every day will not be wasted just because i expect to live 100 years, but that i've lived my life expecting to die at any second.

bleh. I'll update this later. Its too fucking hot..LOL

i fail at this stuff

bigearedfreek @ 2007-07-28T09:56:00

2007-07-28T13:55:39Z

today i was granted an opportunity unlike any other. well ok so it has been common for many people to recieve this opportunity, but rarely many learn from it.

i got to see an artist by the name of Dr. Duanne. He is 75 years old and lives his life according to what he believes.

he is one tough son-of-a-bitch. he cusses more than anyone else i have heard and he is funnier than most stand up comedics these days. i mean seriously, to meet a man who has gone through life many times and again, and still have the passion to live it forth is a man i respect highly.

he highlighted a few main points of how to live life and i'll go over them now...

1) Since he is a photographer, he acknowledged that many photographers photograph what they SEE, not what they touch.

the greatest of humanistic pleasures within our confined space of time is felt, hardly seen. Sure the picture of a feeling has a lot of power, but the feeling itself can never be truly recreated.

For instance, if your love one walks out on you, your heart feels dead, you feel dead, gone, missing right? how can you portray this in an image? sure you can show remorse and agony, but can you show the personal pain involved in this situation? Can you show the meaningless words that can only be felt THROUGH the actions of those mean

On the plane to Japan and Landing

2007-06-30T10:06:56Z

well i'm on my way to japan...actually i'm still on the plane haha.

i'm watching Gray Matters. I've been waiting for this movie to come out since last year. Its a pretty good movie and its cute none the less.

its about a brother and a sister who live together for like 30 years and they don't really spend any time apart. then the brother gets married. BUT the day before their wedding, the sister and the soon-to-be bride kiss. Then again the sister got the fiance pretty freaking drunk...but hey.

so as they get married, the sister realizes that she's absolutely, completely, in love with the fiance. and then the story goes on about how she tries to figure out who she is and what to do.

:)

its cute.

[edit]
ok ending was a bit lame. but hilarious haha.

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7-8 hours into the flight now...

i've just finished watching Full Metal Alchemist: Search for Shambala

now i'm watching a new anime called Solty-Rei

its really good. its not licensed yet or anything, but it might as well be. its got a really good story line.

yeah so basically my family friends LOVE anime. They have somewhere near 3 terabytes TERABYTES of anime. So they gave me near 1 TB because i'm out of the country for 5 weeks. I left 200 GB for music (100 gb) and the rest for the photos i'll be taking on the trip, plus all the edits and what not. I have 50 GB left on my laptop hardrive + about 130 GB left on the external hard drive i brought. So i'm happy as a clam :)

anyways. Back to Solty-Rei

then xxxHolic

then Rec

then Nurse Witch Komugi Chan

then...Ouran High School (anime....i've only read it)

then Karin

err...karin before OHHC....

this will be interesting. shitloads of anime for like...yeah. I have 255 series....over a thousand episodes, over 600 hours of anime. i'm happy! :-D

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8 ours into the flight and now i'm bored as crap. i'm watching monk now...but w/e.

only 2 hours to go. i land @ 4 PM in tokyo. so lets do the math eh?

CA Time = 10:00 PM atm
Tokyo Time= 2:00 PM atm

thy are ahead of us...so thats what...16 hour difference?
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omg...screw this. monk is hella boring. ok i'm going to watch a disney movie...hmm...which one...uhh...oh i know. Beauty and the Beast lol. I'm THAT bored. UGH

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23:00 California Time:

I'm going to take a nap. I'm bored out of my skull. 10 hour flights. Ugh. Not as bad as going to india, but hey...w/e haha.

gnite everyone ;)

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23:41 CA
15:41 Tokyo

FOODAGE! Only like...30-40 minutes before I land...then i can post this thing. I feel sorry for whoever is going to read this. It's REALLY long isn't it?

well anyways, as long as I have internet i'll try to make a photo blog or at least just a blog about all of my travels. It should be quite fun now shouldn't it?

ok. i'm going to close this section until i get my food. then i'll update with what i ate kk?

byee

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fritata and fruit

yum

well i'm about to land so i'll turn this thing off. i'll see you when i land

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ok i landed. well i get free internet access! yay!!

now off to dinner. ttyl!

Ouran!

2007-06-27T07:02:07Z

Ok so yeah...ouran...>.< well my aunt (that crazy asian lady who took all those pictures?) sent me all of them...i'm talking more than I...ME..ever will in my lifetime. EVER. like...2500 or something for just...3 hours lol. well anyways. the twincest in this picture was amazing ...so here it is.

day 3

2007-06-23T09:08:24Z

ok im drunk. wow...took me a while to write tjis lol

First day at nvidia

2007-06-19T01:32:39Z

well today was the first day at nVidia.

mostly just a preparation shoot! it was pretty awesome. lots of stuff we need to get done tomorrow. tons of photos to take and what not so we'll be busy all day long!

i have portraits from:

10-12 photos
12-1 break
1-6 more photos

total time: 8 hrs
total photo time: 7 hours

that's alot. oh well. i'm looking forward to it :-D

Got my macbook pro!!

2007-06-18T05:50:20Z

YAY!

i gotz my macbook pro finally :-D

the only apple in my house currently. freaking awesome i must say ;p

我喜欢我的 Macbook Pro!

如果我的 Macbook Pro 是一个人。。。男人还是怒人。。。我就做爱跟他。

HAH. who knows if that is right. i just typed it out in pinyin and it converted it for me...haha...

yeah.

anyways i'm out. gotta setup for tomorrow. ;)

RULES

2007-06-10T20:01:06Z

1. Never work for family

No matter what the payment, benefits, or connections involved. Never ever work for family. You'll screw yourself over. The moment you sign off saying you'll work for them, is the moment they assume they can manipulate you and treat you like crap just because you "owe" them something. They assume they can disregard all professional curteousy just because they're fucking related to you. Well it doesn't matter who they are. Who you are related too. The fact remains that once you hire someone, you treat them professionally without any question. Families tend to disregard the professional side of it and start barking orders like they own you.

2. The customer is right until they are wrong

Everyone assumes the customer is always right. If they assume they know more about your expertise than you do, and start stating things that are just plain stupid, tell them. Explain that they should trust you and you will provide your very best service. They should trust your judegment more than their own, because if they're so all-knowing. They might as well do it themselves.

i have 2 for now.

i'll make more later on...

A Butterfly Prayer

2007-06-10T02:31:49Z

May the wings of the butterfly kiss the sun.
And find your shoulder to light on.
To bring you luck, happiness and riches.
Today, tomorrow and beyond.

So tired

2007-06-05T05:10:28Z

I'm so fucking tired of my dad telling me what to do

so tired of him telling me i'm going to fail

so tired of him telling me i'm worthless

that no matter what i do in life, it isn't good enough

lately he's been telling me that my classes are lame. that i need to take more math. and yet, i tell him i'll fail.
THEN he says,"its fine if you fail. as long as you try."

BULL. he said that to me at the beginning of this year. and he yells at me everytime i get a B-.
he's such a hipocrit

gee. sorry i don't want to be like you dad. i don't want to be a fucking engineer. i'm not a mathematician. i'm going to freestyle.
why? BECAUSE. i'm one of those people who likes expression. not engineering. why be mediocre @ everything when i
could at least try to be good at something?!

doesn't even matter.
he's probably right.
i'll end up failing in life...no matter what

...no matter what...

on a brighter note...

http://xtremefury.com/

Alina's stepsister Ruthy is such a cutie! :)

SATs

2007-06-02T21:51:04Z

Well that was interesting.

i Was bored out of my skull for 4 hours. seriously...the SATs weren't that hard, like...it was simple stuff...yet i know i'm going to get a mediocre score.

why?

because i just don't give a shit. the SATs were a waste of time...and i was so bored i started half-assing all of the questions. reading some of it instead of all of it. or not even reading the questions at all.

but who knows.

bleh whatever...

bigearedfreek @ 2007-05-28T23:36:00

2007-05-29T06:34:28Z

OK! So let's recap this weekend shall we?

Friday:
- Went tricking w/ Team Loopkicks. INSANE time. Landed tricks. fell twice. pain

Saturday:
- FIRST DAY AT THE CON!
- Tons of pictures taken!
- Lots of memories. Alot of pictures that will be up later this week :)

SUNDAY!!!
- MASQUERADE!

THE OURAN HOST CLUB GROUP I WAS IN PERFORMED! *coughGAYBARcough*

It was insane. that's the video below :)

We won the "Most Comedic Skit" for Fanime Con 2007!!!

(i carried the kid on my back. Alina was the one who came out 2nd and started harassing Julia the one who came out first. Yuliya was the girl in the yellow dress. Amy and Sharon were the twins who were hitting on each other on the cough. Tina was the person with the notebook/clipboard)

SOOO FUN!!!

GAY BAR WOOOO!!

i give up

2007-05-18T01:34:44Z

seriously.

i'm so fucking tired of...

2007-05-15T01:38:37Z

people who think photos are just photos.

yes they are something you see everyday, but dumbasses take advantage of the power of photography. they call themselves photographers or that they have a "good eye for photography" when really all they have is a natural talent to see composition.

its not that hard to see a good photograph. its not that hard to TAKE a good photograph, but it IS hard to put some emotion or some meaning into the photograph.

photos are another form of expression. just like traditional painting, traditional sketching, writing, poetry, slam poetry, music. its all a form of expression. it doesn't matter how the image was made, how easy it was to edit, how easy it was to take, its about the meaning behind the photographs.

yeah, there ARE those photos that mean nothing. they're just fun to take, just little memories or snippets, but too many people take these photos and call themselves photographers. (I'M NOT SAYING I'M A PRO) i just happen to LOVE photography in the sense that it allows me to express myself in a manner most people won't understand. in a manner that only people who care to look at something, and unbindedly see the photograph with emotions. connect the dots.

there are those who are shallow enough to take one and say, "here, done. that's a photo. pretty good composition eh?"

i can't stand people like that. well...ok so i mean everyone takes photos. but it gets on my nerves when people come out speaking like photography their thing, when they couldn't give a rats ass about it. they don't CARE about photography, why call themselves a photographer?

if you don't care about art, why should you have the right to call yourself an artist? you can be good at drawing. you can be good at singing, hell you can be good at making creative websites, but unless you have a PASSION for it. don't give me this "i'm an artist/musician/photographer" crap.

even like martial arts. you have people going through the motions and then get a black belt and go "oh yeah! i'm a black belt". My ass you're a black belt. you HAVE a black belt, but you aren't really a black belt. a black belt, a martial artist in general, is someone who takes the knowledge from the dojo/dojang/studio and incorporate it into their daily lives. anyone can pay for a black belt. but how many are true to the meaning of having one?

you'll find fakers everwhere in life. i SEE fakers everyday. they think they're the shit because they can whip out a point-and-shoot and get an ok picture. just because they can use a paintbrush, they think they're something cool. just because they can throw a half-ass roundhouse, they think they're something cool.

why can't they all just disappear?!

it drives me insane. its like...i don't give a f*ck if you like martial arts/photography/art or not. i really don't. you don't need to diss it though. you don't need to disgrace the names of the passions because you think you're something. just rubbing dirt all over it, making it superficial. a black belt used to mean something to alot of people, now its a commodity that people think they can get with 3 years and a check. they think photography is just a new job because they can buy a camera and printer.

its not the equipment you use. its not the editing you do. its how you use it, and how you mean for it to portrayed.

it's ridiculous.

so don't give me this shit about you THINKING you're something. you trying to PULL OFF that you're something.

i know people who ARE what they say they are. People who ARE photographers, who ARE martial artists, who ARE artists and they'll go somewhere with that passion.

you're nothing but a fake shell, a smile, and an eye for rule of thirds. don't bullshit me. it doesn't work. .

Blurred Symphony

2007-05-07T04:22:59Z

I was listening to "The Mandolin" from Captain Correli's Mandolin (such a sweet movie by the way. It's AMAZING)

I wanted to take a picture one day with a nice soft touch.

something people will look at and say "that's a fragile object...but it looks solid. Its soft yet its...real. it's there. It's something i see everyday but never look at it like this. its something worth remembering. Something worth keeping..."

and i will NEVER make a picture like that. There's no way i'm good enough but...this was my first test of a picture in this idea. just making a normal thing look soft...or light...or just uplifting i suppose? who knows what i was thinking...

yeah...

fucking rednecks

2007-05-05T06:57:18Z

So I'm in nebraska for some meeting thing and I'm gonna take a shower and the shower has pubic hair everywhere. It was so fucking gross! Ugh.

Ok maybe it wasn't a redneck but there is hair everywhere! On the walls, the floor, the sink and toilet. Wtf. I was like...damn was an ape in here?

Dudes and dudettes. No joke. Eww.

How is everyone?

pissing me off

2007-04-18T05:30:13Z

if you have a problem
say it to my face
don't start bitching behind me like its some sort of favor

its just dumbass drama that noone needs
that's what guys do best
they talk straight up
no bull
instead of going behind and whispering
where others catch drifts
or little hints
and it becomes this huge deal
when really its so small

and when its not your business in the first place
don't make it yours
pretending its always been yours in the first place

no worries
i won't be around you guys any more
its fine
you can be happier and more relaxed now
a simple, irrelevant, easy to get rid of problem is now solved
the equation seemed hard and complex
long and confusing
when "x" simply equaled
go away

Assembly Friday

2007-04-18T01:44:33Z

i might be doing an open form this friday during the assembly...
that is if we have time and get passed...lol...

my fever

2007-04-01T17:44:33Z

came back and raped me

103.1 degrees F

Achey all over

Cold (yet hot...)

and really uber dehydrated.

I took a shower and it seems to be working :)

ok...

2007-04-01T05:19:28Z

kicked the fuck out of my fever. yeah that's right bitch *says to fever*

beat that!

i popped 6 or so advil
5 500 Mg vitamin C / E tablets
Drank 2 glasses of Theraflu

Tomorrow the next battle shall start.

Airborne and Theraflu.
Advil and Vitams

All working side by side to defeat the evil COLD

i'm off to bed. Sleep also helps :)

fuck

2007-04-01T00:11:21Z

i'm sick

i have a fevor (101 degrees)

and i'm achey/sore all over

ugh not good. i was sick last time...not this time too!

DAMNIT

I'm Tired

2007-03-31T05:41:17Z

im sorry i can't make all of you happy

sorry i screw up so much

don't worry about it anymore

there's nothing to see

nothing to remember

i'll be gone before you know it